Loneliness is beautiful (again)
In contrast to the blog heading, I love to live with loads of people around me, precisely with those who really don’t care about me or give a damn of what I am really inside. That makes you really be what you are inside and outside with all such people around you.
But when it comes to family or someone you really care or bother about then there it goes out of the window, "what you really are". With them, you can only be what you are liked for and be what they know you of. And there will be times with growing differences that make you feel smothered by the way you lead life like living-a-lie.
You then try to break out of it and only to realize that there is no way out as you cannot replace everyone around you, there is no way out coz of the promises you made to them, there is no way out coz you don’t want people get hurt. But then you see, it is only a matter of time. The frustration all around your heart stirs more and more unintentional hurting reactions or show your wrath of being unable to help yourself. It feels like you are holding thorns while it is a pillow. It feels like magnum while it is a cappuccino. It feels like graveyard while it is your favorite coffee shop.
You then experiment the ultimate - being alone.
- You'll realize how beautiful it is to please yourself with fried corn in the cold evening than try pleasing someone rest of your life.
- You'll realize there is world of time at your feet than you used to crave for an extra five minutes for your sleep, for your work, for your love of listening to music, for your dinner watching TV.
- You'll realize you are the owner of your thoughts
- You'll realize what you really want to be…..
ALONE.
Loneliness is a beautiful thing to happen to anyone either by force or by choice.
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Loneliness is beautiful until you crave to reach out to someone in the middle of the night and find no one around.
Sometimes one just wants to be held.
in the middle of the night? oh well, i can play the ever boring farmville or watch the scary dog cartoon or listen to vh1 Zzzz program or the least, hug my pillow :-)
loneliness and being alone are different. i prefer to live alone and i hate the feeling of loneliness. wen v r alone v get time for ourselves which is very imp to know, understand n do woteva we want for ourselves...not selfishness entirely. max of our life we live for others...(u do...n i know), so have a nice time being alone..n if u can n if u really are...enjoy madi..
'you lead life like living-a-lie' is a horrible feeling. i can understand. never give a chance for such feelings to be in. let go...nono..chase off..only then u can rule.
Hey,
You have enjoyed all these while being alone..
Now i will not let you enjoy being alone as its time you enjoy the beauty of togetherness :)))))
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